Sometimes life feels sooooo overwhelming that I just want to sleep and pretend nothing exists but me and my covers. I think I feel nutty right now mainly because I'm living out of my car and have no real roots planted until I get into my condo on Friday (fingers crossed)!
The idea of starting school again makes me have a headache! I decided late in the game that I want to teach history to high school kids. So now with a degree from BYU I'm taking classes to get a teaching credential from UVU. I should be excited, however just thinking about the reading for the semester again gives me a headache.
I start teaching dance tomorrow. Although I made it through a year of teaching dance already, this year I'm teaching more classes and I'm not sure that I'm talented enough to really do it. I know that satan is the moron who puts these thoughts into my head but I'm just tooooo tired today to really think I can choreograph anything worth watching.
The districts that I'm teaching right now are also causing me sleepless nights. I don't know how the male teachers I work with do it. They are always saying that the sisters should just leave work at work. I'm not sure how they expect me to do that when some of these poor missionaries go through so much in a short amount of time. I'm with them almost all day everyday and they become a part of my life for three weeks. The group I have now brought a lot of issues with them. Some of them have gone home and some have fought through their MTC expreience and have become great young men. It has been very emotional for me and them.
Maybe I'm just tired. I haven't gone to the gym in a week which is horrible since I was doing so well with going every day. I really love working out. It gives me time to myself and just over all makes me feel great. Please excuse my complaining. I promise to write a happy blog entry next!